So far many friends and strangers were questioning me if I would like to convert to Islam. This question was based on their evaluation of my latest interests Middle Eastern cultures and political aspects of the history, as well as my elementary knowledge of Arabic and some Islamic rules.
I always liked to know the truth from the original source. Reading many articles and news reports, where people were quoting Koran, made me think that the best way to know whose words are right (and if Islam really promotes violence of any form) is to read Koran myself. Currently I'm reading it in Ukrainian (mother language always reaches your heart first!). I also plan to learn Arabic for purpose of understanding original texts.
As far as I can see now, I share a lot of ideas and values in life with these, which are mentioned by Allah in Holy Writing. Plus, I've met a lot of Muslim people, who are very nice to me and helped me a lot. But the most important part for me was discovery of those people, who share my ideas and value the same things in life. Unfortunately, in modern world and any non-Muslim community such people are less and less common.
I'm Orthodox Christian raised in Central Ukraine. This means I'm not very religious person, as well as my parents and grandparents. This is because:
- I wasn't taught so much about Christian religion at young age.
- Main religion in Kyivan Rus' was Paganism. Then the king Volodymir decided to convert Ukrainians to some new religion, which will be beneficial for trading purposes. He was deciding between Islam (reach Meddle Eastern region by these times) or Christianity (new developing Europe). He decided to bring Christianity to Ukraine from Byzantium.
- In USSR time it was forbidden to go to the church. Only old people on big religious holidays were allowed to visit a church. That's why generation of my parents doesn't know much about religious traditions.
- Every young parents do Baptism to their children, because it's part of Ukrainian culture and local traditions.
I believe religion and faith are absolutely different things. Christian religion is just part of the culture in which I was raised. We (Ukrainians) for the most part already gave up speaking our native language, because of the influence and terror of Russia/former USSR/Moscow Empire. I felt how it is to be 'a person without motherland' in Germany, where everyone says I'm 'russische Frau' (Russian woman) or immigrant from East Europe, but when I say 'I'm from Ukraine' - people are lost, because 'She's not from Russia'=no motherland. I just don't want to loose last boundaries (in form of religion) with my culture and motherland.
I also believe, that God is within us and no one should relate only on Gods will, but live his/her life like a good person and try his/her best at everything. I'm really grateful one Muslim person, who said 'Do you believe in God? [My answer was: Yes] This is the most important!'.
By my experience being Christian, I feel like it's very important to have people, who will support you and show you the right path. It should be done from young childhood or supported by spouse with same religious background.
Maybe someday I will choose Islam, but only if there will be completely committed person by my side to help me out :-)
P.S. As one of my Ukrainian friends said: 'I feel like it is really yours. If you will decide to change your religion one day - you'll be the same person for me and I'll love you anyway'.